I hate living with a chronic pain condition.
It’s tiring. It’s overwhelming. And it’s fucking unfair.
It’s robbed me of so much, and I try so hard to see the positives; see all the stuff I still have; but I’ve just had enough. I’m exhausted from trying to stay positive.
I’m exhausted from trying to live a normal life when my jaw is aching constantly. It hurts to talk. To talk! Basic communication and I can’t even do that.
I’m exhausted from pretending like I’m ok. I’m not ok.
I’ve lost friends, relationships, jobs, hobbies, passions – all because of this pain.
I’ve gained anxiety, depression, weight – all because of this pain.
The negatives just seem to be stacked so tall, the positives don’t even stand a chance of being seen.